By Lindsay Solava
Ed. Note: We’re delighted to share today’s post from Lindsay Solava, wife of Troy, First Free’s Director of Student Ministries. Lindsay and Troy were married two years ago, shortly after Troy joined our ministry team. Lindsay has lived in Rockford for two years and is employed as an RN, in addition to her involvement in Student Ministries and co-leading the freshman girls’ Life Group.
It all started in December of 2013. I graduated college, two weeks later married my high school sweetheart, and a week after that moved nine hours away to Rockford, Illinois. My poor parents, right? Before I knew what happened, I was sitting in our apartment thinking, “what do I do now?”
I was waiting to sit for my nursing board exams while simultaneously searching for a job. It was January and freezing outside. I barely knew how to get to the grocery store, much less knowing about five people at this point! This threw me into a season of real dependency upon God. You see, I had my life planned out to a tee for the last couple months. I knew exactly how everything was going to work out, and then I found myself without many answers to some pretty big questions like, “Where am I going to work?”, “What does a godly wife actually look like in the day to day?”, and “Where is my place in this thing called ministry?”
Jesus calls us to depend on Him. “Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength.” Matthew 22:37 Wow! I don’t know about you, but most days I’m pretty dependent upon myself. I’m pretty reliant upon my job to provide for my needs/wants. I trust in my own abilities to accomplish tasks. But the Lord has been reminding me how sweet it is to depend on Him. When I recognize my need for Him, that’s when I grow the most!
As a newlywed, without a job, and not many friends, I depended on Him to provide all of this to teach me, and He did! He is faithful to His people! He is our good Father who knows how to give good gifts (Matthew 7:11).
So why don’t we love Him with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength? For me, it’s because I feel the need to be in control of things. So when I need answers, I find them for myself. When I need a tangible item, I work hard to get it myself, completely ignoring the promises He has given me.
So I asked myself, “Would my life look any different without Jesus?” I want you to ask yourself this same question. I know we each desire a life dependent on Christ, but do our actions show it? Are we placing ourselves in situations where we know we cannot be successful on our own and that we will need to depend upon Christ to provide the power/resources/finances/etc.?
2 Corinthians 12:9 says, “But He said to me, ‘my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness…” We know this to be true, but the way we live our lives can be the opposite! Instead of really depending on Him, we work hard for OUR money, we work hard for OUR reputation; but the truth is the Lord is enough. He is trustworthy.
My challenge for myself and for you is to pray that God would make you dependent upon Him, no matter what. I’ll be the first to admit that this is a scary prayer! Especially if you’re anything like me and need to have a little bit of a handle on things! But the Lord is gracious; He will be with you every step of the way! God desires for us to become more like His Son, which means we require a lot of pruning. Pruning is uncomfortable, but necessary.
So what does dependency tangibly look like? For me it’s consistent prayer, obedience to the Spirit’s leading, and an attitude of gratefulness. I’ve found that if I’m consistently in prayer for dependency, God will provide opportunities in my life to be dependent! Funny how that works, huh? This is why it’s so very important for me to be in the Word and in prayer because when I am walking in the Spirit, when opportunities arise I am sensitive to His leading and can respond in obedience (John 10:27).
And lastly, if I am serious about depending upon God, then I will be grateful for the opportunities to be more like Him. Is it always easy, never awkward, or tough? Absolutely not, but it is worth it!
We serve a powerful God who loves us and desires for us to experience the full life He offers! Oh, how I pray we join Him!